Just had lunch with Weihui and Huiru! haha. im glad they actually organised this lunch date and i guess i'll give myself a pat on the back for not pangseh-ing them! *pats pats* =p Even though it's just a 1.5h kinda lunch, i think we still enjoyed ourselves. i think we should do this more often!! And i shall date my other friends more often too.. haven seen my jc classmates for quite sometime already.. and i cannot recall when was the last time 2C met up.. probably before uni started..

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i've been seeing kids in sec school uniform and i cant help but feel nostalgic. HAHA. how nice it would be if we were to be in our uniforms (okay, i know MANY rvians hate it) and being back in the old school compound, reminiscing bout the good old days.. it's been only three years.. but somehow the memories seem so distant.. it's difficult for me to miss aj though.. those traumatic 2 years.. academic wise and all the probs my clique once had.. i'll nv wanna go back to those days again..

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sometimes i just need friends and bits and pieces of memories to make me happy.. finished writing my 10th diary yesterday! im glad that i have been writing all these while.. probably for the past 7 years.. im just glad i managed to pen down my happiest and saddest moments.. all the happy times, they nv fail to make me smile (: been thinking alot on what i really want, and what i really need.. i cant be sure though.. sighs.

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回忆的声音
播在夜里
像是一首旋律
多么美丽

那时我很肯定
你是我唯一
眨个眼我们就各分东西

再说我爱你
泪把心占据
却有些甜蜜
让伤心被允许

说过的话语
做过的事情
像歌曲陪我每个冬季
纪念着我和你相爱这主题

时间早已忘记
分手时候的无情
你给的美好回忆
让我有怀念的勇气


如果过不了自己这一关，我是无法用真心对待对方的。

=.= just read xiurong's blog! wah, is she like trying to 害 me? how can!! first paragraph say me and CB, second paragraph say i say the 小弟弟帅! hahaha. like that ppl will think i don't wanna blog bout it cos im trying to hide my true colours.. tsktsk. ok fine! that day work at Chan Brothers Travel Fair really got one 17 year old, 单眼皮 cutee guy!! better than CB, who is now known as RB! -growls- hahaha. but ppl, i not so boy crazy de okayy.. =p

头脑乱，心也乱！>.<

Slumber Movie Night! it was quite fun i guess. but freak! Shutter is really scary!! i didnt watch most of the scary parts but i got tricked a few times by Uncle Ling into watching some parts. and the scenes kept replaying in my mind after that. luckily we went home in the morning! *shudders*

here's our food and us in our PJs! :D we are so cute! :p yays, i love my OG mates! :D

worked with a couple of OG mates from 9am to 930pm the next day, at the Chan Brothers Travel Fair. by the end of the day (or night i suppose), our legs were killing us! poor legs ): and it was more standing in the train when we went home. =.=

the whole working experience was more exasperating than happy for me and most of my og mates should know why. i don't know. maybe we were all tired towards the end and i got really annoyed with what a certain someone had to say. sometimes, i think of why things happen this or that way.. then i start to doubt myself. maybe i was the main cause of my own agony.. then again, i believe i should just be myself at all times.. no point putting up a false front just for impressions' sake. *shrugs* at least, that's what i think.

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have been thinking bout what my piano teacher told me.. i think im really too used to shutting the doors on guys, especially when i think that we are too close. it's kinda becoming this way all cos i wanted to stop my mean ways of misleading people, last time. im used to keeping all my thoughts and feelings to myself as well. bottling up everything, cos i don't see any point in sharing my stuffs.. those that are really deep down in my heart, to others. and it seems like im really having difficulties expressing my feelings.. ha i don't really understand myself nowadays.. there are so many questions that i cant find answers to..

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没别的 只想说对不起

对不起 我真的爱你

不管你会怎么想 你怎么说

也不会改变我的决定

你知道 有时候 感情事很难说

很难说 爱人或朋友

从前到现在 我真的感觉要

一想你 我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳

想你知道我睡的不好

喝水想着你 搭车想着你

合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情

我等不到你的回应

不想难为你 又不想放弃你

决定告诉你

对不起对不起

我爱你

没别的 只想说对不起

怎么样我都会珍惜

不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做

也不会影响我的心情

你知道 有时候 男孩更难捉摸

难捉摸爱人或朋友

现在到永远 我真会感觉要

一想你我的心就狂跳

我的模样 记不记得牢

情人卡有没有收到

读书想着你 听歌想着你

大地和蓝天 出现的全是你

我才不管你的表情

我才不理你回不回应

不想难为你 又不想放弃你

决定告诉你

对不起对不起

我爱你

你听一听我的心跳

你看一看我睡的不好

喝水想着你 搭车想着你

合眼闭眼间出现的全是你

我猜不到你的表情

我等不到你的回应

不想难为你 又不想放弃你

决定告诉你

对不起对不起

我爱你

this week's finally over and done with! there's still one more week to go! the tiring weekend has yet to arrive. boooo.

saw a certain someone today. the feeling was just so odd. maybe cos i am more used to looking from afar. then again, it was nice to see each other. maybe we wouldnt even get to see each other anymore. haha. *shrugs*

it's funny how some small little things can make me happy. and how a few seconds later, im back to reality.

contentment. i need to learn to be contented.

self-consciousness. i need to learn to be less self-conscious.

how many times have i looked down on myself? i need to learn to be more confident. i guess i should be proud of myself sometimes, too.

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Jesus, Lover of my soul,
Jesus, I will never let you go
Youve taken me from the miry clay
You've set my feet upon the Rock, and now i know

I love you, I need you,
Though my world may fall,
Ill never let you go
My Saviour,
my closest friend,
I will worship you until the very end

RAWR. i still have soci from 7pm to 10pm later on, can you believe it!? i can't! oops, i know it's supposed to be a rhetorical question. anyways, im so glad this week's finally over (maybe later at 10pm)! but next week's gonna be WORSE. it's super packed! but i'll be meeting loads of people so i'm still happyhappyhappy~ :D though i'm still thinking of whether or not to give OG outing a miss :p haha.

cannot make it man.. i'll be meeting friends on monday, wednesday and friday~! there'll be singing on tuesday.. piano lesson and singing again, on thursday! then my ex cell leader's church wedding on saturday.. and if im going for the slumber party from sat night to sunday, i'll have to attend service on saturday evening.. and then!!! THAT'S IT. i'll have no time for the other stuffs like, do my tutorials. AND!! what's worse is that the following sunday will be spent working with the Hu8t Disney peeps (yays, i like this name!) from 9am-9pm. i cant afford to let my tutorials pile up, can i? boooo. Dear Lord, pls maximise my time. ):

anyways, xiurong, 是什么风把妳吹来的? why all of a sudden, you guys all know my blog le. must be Jer!! =p that means i cannot talk bad bout you ppl liao. hmm.

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是作梦吧
我不知不觉回到熟悉的地方
是想念
才会让我必上眼睛就看到你在那里啊
你的声音在好远好远的地方
我说不出话
是怎黱了
感觉不见了
怎黱了
你怎黱消失了
找留不到你
脑海里只下半首歌的旋律
do you understand...

时间呀 你听见我了吗
滴答声中我又想起你
回忆啊 醒了吗
我只想问一个问题 你好吗

爱的记亿会像铁盒一样生锈吗
就算思念旧的可以
也别丢掉他

想念啊
你听见我了吗
可能吗
第二次让我爱上你

飞走的往事呀
请你转个弯
我爱你的时光
你没忘了吧
我再也不会让你哭了呀
你听见吗
(i love you)

可能吧
是我的眼泪吗
这是第几次又想起你

明天呢再说吧
爱情加上一个也许
也不怕

你爱不爱我
是未知数
剪下你给我的回忆
走我走的路

第二次爱上你 *

BOO! math test 死掉了！ sad ): don't know why im getting all stressed up bout studies too. then again, shldnt i be glad that at least im stressed up? *nods* i don't want history to repeat itself! im now all ready to receive Fukang's tuition on Lagrange Function. haha. Fukang, you always read my blog but NEVER once left a tag. so friendly of you! yup and seniors say must start studying already.. cant even wait till Nov when math/stats ends.. sighs.

i really pity myself today. kept kena shoot by Jer, GH and Eric. RAWRRR!! am i really that boyish!? say im not girl! what the!! i shall be super girly from now on and scare the wits out of you guys. :D k suan le. i can never do that. Anyway, Jer, i've decided to link you up. Thank me!! :D haha.

sinyee~ don't worry! see? i posted your pic up. :D

今天的星星只亮了一秒钟。 =/

BOOOOO. stressed arh~ the current topic for math is soooo difficult. and "i thought JC ppl will find math easier?" *shakes head* really kinda stressed. especially since the test tmr's on this topic. crap. and i still have my econs assignment to do.. *whines* ):

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oh and ive been wearing the same clothes to school until i also paiseh le. shopping doesnt really help too cos i don't seem to see any supernice clothes that i fancy. can nice clothes just multiply and pack themselves nicely into my wardrobe? hahaha.

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*snorts*

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some people.. no matter how hard you try to bond with them and how much you 付出, they just cant be bothered.. they don’t give a damn. then there are those who are always there for you.. 默默支持着你，甚至守护着你.. yet i take them for granted.. and choose to look for those who treat me as any other "someone" in their lives.. it's like so 自讨苦吃! yet im still doing that. *sighs* sometimes i feel so disappointed with myself. like when can i learn to be contented? really gonna cherish all those around me.. then again, if they don't appreciate me.. at least i know i've tried.

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gonna return back to my Lagrange Function. yucks. busyweekbusyweekbusyweek..

-pouts

OH YEA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIMIN!!! and happy belated birthday lucas! (cos i think he doesnt read my blog. haha different 待遇！）